‘I have someone in my life that thinks more of me than that…’

You’re right.  Maybe this mass exodus from my life has been an unprecedented boon.  No, I did not make the decisions – others made the choice to leave my life.  Reasons vary, but the decision was the same.  I do not begrudge anyone for any decision that concerns me, as long as their decision brings me no physical harm.  The people that have chosen to exclude me from their future have indelibly left emotional scars – those are not to be helped.

When I allow myself quiet moments to reflect on recent events, I find my mind drifting to battle.  In battle, the ‘weaker’ men are killed first.  Here weaker is meant in a survival sense, not a physical sense.  As the battle wears on, you are eventually left with an elite fighting force – not because they are the most skilled, but because they are survivors.

The other part of battle is how wide open terrain is difficult to defend.  So the defenders will do what they can to create obstacles to funnel the enemy into kill zones.  The kill zones are just narrow concentration points where the most damage can be inflicted upon an enemy using relatively few resources.

People that have chosen to continue their lives without my presence have aided me in ‘weeding’ out people that have proven to be superfluous to my future.   Though this is not always the case – I refuse to deal in specifics for the mere sake of understanding.  The concept is what you should be grasping, not the gradient thoughts.  This weeding has brought focus to the people that remain.  In bringing them into focus, I am suddenly enlightened by their very existence.  It is as if a veil was removed from my eyes.  For some, I clearly see them.  I liken this vision to driving in the rain without windshield wipers.  Yes you can see, but how much better is your vision when you turn on the windshield wipers.

Yeah, I have people in my life that thinks more of me than that…

When the veil was lifted what did you see?

I saw that I have people in my life that think more of me than to exit my life, or exclude me from theirs.

Perception of you as a whole person differs from perception of you "at that moment." I doubt if all that have made the decision to exit your life did so because they thought little of you as a whole person but rather disagreed with certain actions or decisions you made "at that moment." When I say "at that moment" I'm referring to an extended period of time because surely you could care less about anyone who was in your life for a limited amount of time. Regardless, the decision to exit someone's life does not always have to be a result of negative feelings accumulated. It could be that the individual(s) thought more of themselves and what they desired to have in life. It's possible that goals or desires just didn't align but that doesn't discount how people feel or think about you as a whole.

You sound defensive. I find it in bad taste to come into my journal and attempt to lecture to me about what I think, or how I view something. You want to offer unsolicited advice - that is fine, that is your option. However, it is not your option to do so in a medium that I use to express myself.

In the future, if you decide that you need to offer unsolicited opinions, do so via alternative methods. I am sure you are aware of the various means to contact me.

WOW!